A Tune a Day: Saturday

This years love had better last
Heaven knows it's high time
And I've been waiting on my own too long
But when you hold me like you do
It feels so right
I start to forget
How my heart gets torn
When that hurt gets thrown
Feeling like you can't go on

Turning circles when time again
It cuts like a knife oh yeah
If you love me got to know for sure
Cos it takes something more this time
Than sweet sweet lies
Before I open up my arms and fall
Losing all control
Every dream inside my soul
And when you kiss me
On that midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singing ain't this life so sweet

This years love had better last
This years love had better last

So whose to worry
If our hearts get torn
When that hurt gets thrown
Don't you know this life goes on
And won't you kiss me
On that midnight street
Sweep me off my feet
Singing ain't this life so sweet

This years love had better last
This years love had better last
This years love had better last
This years love had better last

A Tune A Day: Monday

As the winter winds litter London with lonely hearts
Oh the warmth in your eyes swept me into your arms
Was it love or fear of the cold that led us through the night?
For every kiss your beauty trumped my doubt

And my head told my heart
"Let love grow"
But my heart told my head
"This time no
This time no"

We'll be washed and buried one day my girl
And the time we were given will be left for the world
The flesh that lived and loved will be eaten by plague
So let the memories be good for those who stay

And my head told my heart
"Let love grow"
But my heart told my head
"This time no"
Yes, my heart told my head
"This time no
This time no"

Oh the shame that sent me off from the God that I once loved
Was the same that sent me into your arms
Oh and pestilence is won when you are lost and I am gone
And no hope, no hope will overcome

And if your strife strikes at your sleep
Remember spring swaps snow for leaves
You'll be happy and wholesome again
When the city clears and sun ascends

And my head told my heart
"Let love grow"
But my heart told my head
"This time no"

And my head told my heart
"Let love grow"
But my heart told my head
"This time no
This time no"

A Tune A Day...

When I was in primary school I was apparently very musical, so much so that my teachers took it up themselves to foist the recorder upon me, despite my protestations. This was not the only musical instrument I was lumbered with, oh no, I was also a prisoner of the trumpet for a long weary while. But unlike the trumpet I grew to enjoy playing the recorder, and we were all given a book of songs to work through called "A Tune a Day". I remember very little about it except that the one I had had a blue cover, when all the other kids had a green one. This is because I had the second book in the series, so was a whole book ahead of the others. This was not, alas, due to any kind of musical prowess on my part. On the contrary, I was off the day they handed out the music books and they didn't have enough green ones to go around. Rather than photocopy or let me share, I was instead given completely different music to learn before I'd even learned where to put my fingers on the blasted thing.

I think this is the story of my life.

BUT that whole story was just to explain why I chose this title for this post. I've deicded to post lyrics to a different song every day, as a kind of cathartic exercise. Songs that mean something to me, and are applicable to how I feel at the time. It's like... I still want to post and tell everyone how I'm doing, but sometimes words fail me and I can't explain for the life of me in proper English. At times like that I've always fallen on using someone elses words to do the explaining for me, and that's what I want to do this week. I toyed with the idea of the song or band starting with the same letter as the day (which todays coincidentally does), but that seemed to make it too deliberate. What if the song I WANTED to post didn't fit this? Me then trying intentionally to find a song that was appropriate JUST to make it fit didn't seem genuine. Missing the point of the exericise.

Anyway, I'll post todays separately. This post is overly long as it is.

Thought I should mention...

...that my last post wasn't about anything serious or the like. Just a story about a couple of people SERIOUSLY irritating me, which was kinda funny in the end (but not really). So, no need to worry folks! I'm actually feeling pretty positive about things right now-

• College will be over in a few weeks and I'm fairly confident about my mark for my Graded Unit, and I know I'll pass everything else so there's no real need to stress about that.  Can't help but worry a little, but I wouldn't be as hard to get everything right if I wasn't!
• I start back at derby practice on Tuesday and although I'm panicking about how good all the newbies are, I can't wait to meet them all! AND can't wait to be skating with M and S (no not Marks n Sparks!) again! It'll be nice, the three of us getting the underground etc together again, cos S is on our training committee so she comes on Tuesdays again.
•  With college finishing, I'll have more time and energy to myself, so myself and a couple of girls from college are trying to find new things to take up during the summer, including going to the gym together during the week and maybe a summer class or something.
• Taking F's advice, I'm thinking about taking up Muay Thai. She said it'd be great for improving my fitness and strength, which will in turn be good for derby, which is good!

So I'm trying my hardest to focus on what I'm excited about right now, which is helping me be in better spirits these days. I'm not going to lie to myself and pretend all my problems are gone just because I'm in a good mood, but I like to imagine that if I'm in a better mood then my problems wont seem so unsurmountable.


Let's hope I can hit 27 feeling a lot lighter in many different ways :)

Vow of silence?

I had a post I was just DYING to get out there but thanks to not really wanting to have to make my blog invite-only or anything like that, I can't lest it fall into the wrong hands.

So I'll leave you with the knowledge that I'm really tired and don't want to get up as early as I do.

God I feel fat today.

My Gas Heart

Is in a state of constant fluctuation...
One minute vapour-light
The next lead heavy
In the blink of an eye it goes from empty to full

And back again
But never is it in one fixed state, or still
Always either agonizingly tender
Or hollow and vacant
Longing to be filled at just the right level

To be content

Sellers Remorse

(I got these lights as a Christmas gift from Ebay a while back... so cool! Plus, they plug into a USB port!)

I have SO much guff that I need to get on Ebay sharpish. Shoes, clothes, books, just random crap! But I soooo cannot be bothered :( it just seems like so much hassle, with all the sellers fees and trying to remember if I have the right Paypal account registered, that kinda thing. Gah! Anyone in the market for some high heels?

I'm so lazy...